Have you ever had a bad week? I mean a really bad week. Well, while I appreciate that some people weeks can be terrible, this week can just be over already.
Yep, It’s been a bad week. I’m not really sure where all these “Ls” (losses) came from. I just remember the last good day I had, I was networking with some great women. We were making some plans. I was being encouraging and being helpful. I remember trying to connect some dots and I was uploading things to the new site. Then I got a text message and an instant headache. I hate when I have dealings with certain people, but I also understand that communication is sometimes necessary. Maybe that was the start of my bad week. Right there with that text message. Following the headache came my son losing my bank card. Although, I didn’t know that until a few days later. Then my cell phone cracked. I mean screen is gone. I can’t see a thing. I can’t answer a call. I can’t review a message. I mean nothing. Well to top all of that off the washer broke. Right in the middle of the heavy load. I mean Jesus.
It’s one of those weeks where I have to prove what I’m made of. You know when you make a statement, a very bold statement about who you are and what you are going to take? Well I’m there. Let me further explain what I mean.
For a few weeks now I’ve been placing boundaries in place for certain people in my life. You can read about that on 16 for 2016. Since I decided that people shouldn’t have access to me whenever they want, I’ve had to put my money where my mouth is. I have to enforce those boundaries. So when that person texted me outside of the allotted time, it really pissed me off. I mean, seriously. What kind of grown person can’t follow instructions? This exchange gave me a migraine for 4 days. I hate when I have a migraine. When I have one, I also get nausea too. This situation stresses me out. I am so tired of people taking from me and giving nothing in return.
Well day two of the migraine was the worst. It was one of those times when all you can do is lay down with the lights off and sleep. I mean sleep without moving. You know how the slightest movement creates the most pain. Well during this time my son decided he was going to take the girls to the store. I didn’t see a problem with that because you know, pain and all. Well that was the last time I saw my bank card. This is such a minute “L” considering. One of my goals this year is to place memory techniques in place for us. You know the mind is lazy. Well the progress so far for this goal is still 0% complete.
I’m going to put my phone and the washer in the same category because they are big ticket items. I was recently asked what does the person I want to be look like. I thought long and hard about it. I thought on this for a good week. I finally came up with an answer. I’m not going to go into grave detail, but I will tell you that she isn’t as bothered about replacing big ticket items as I am. After we lost everything in the Great Flood on 2016, I was determined to replace things swiftly. The person I want to be wouldn’t be as devastated about big ticket items lost because there is money there to replace them. I wouldn’t have to choose which one I will replace first. I want to be able to say “I hadn’t planned on spending this money for this, but oh, well.” That’s the person I want to be. Since I’ve said this is what I want and I said it loudly, boldly and with authority, I have to do what Beyoncé says: “I talk like this, because I can back it up.” I can’t just say that’s what I want and not put any action behind my words.
Maybe these “L’s” were reminders of what I said I was going to do. Maybe it’s time to show and prove. Maybe this isn’t a bad week, but a week to make me uncomfortable to get to moving in the direction I said I wanted to be. Well now time to move!!!